BIPOLAR POEM

I dunno where this came from... I just started writing without thinking and this is what came out of me!!!

Bipolar...Bipolar...Bipolar...Bipolar...Bipolar...Bipolar

It rings like a song in my head, spinning around in my mind making a rhythmic tune that only I can Salsa to. I get up happy jumping around, but the littlest change makes me frown. I fuss and I fight the whole day through, wondering why and how and who, can bare such a life full of nothing but strife. It's just not fair! Doesn't anyone care? I wonder how long before they notice I'm dead? This question plays out, like a constant in my head. It's hopeless for me the whole day through, I wish someone could help me, maybe it's you! I'm done with this shit, it's fucking driving me crazy, I just want to grow up to be called a lady. My boyfriend doesn't care the relationship is over; he's capable of leaving without a need for closure. He leaves one great big tear, right through my heart, with a dull blade and soon the blood will start. It pours out of my soul staining me red, from head to toe, don't worry I'll soon be dead... from the force of this dull blade... no peace, no serenity, no cover of shade. It's over now, my life... the darkness rushes in pushing harder on the knife, till it splits my soul like a bullet leaves a hole; only this one is permanent never to heal, with each coming episode this is how I feel. But one thing that remains true, to be a constant reminder of all my blue, are the empty seats in every pew. There's no shade of gray, come on, or else I'd stay! I'm bitter, battered, and torn; whithered, broken, tired, and worn. Just leave me alone, but never forget this, it's called bipolar disorder or 'a life not to miss.....'

If he should leave me I'm in a room full of darkness, no sound, no light, no hope! It's just me and my thoughts, they batter and bruise me, hitting left and right beneath the shadows that move me. I can't see a thing, nor do I want to... no house...no kids...no ring!

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XOXO

Hopeful 2day (that there is tomorrow!)